Hmmm… Well this is not meant to bash people, well maybe it is. Here are some scenarios that I have found interesting in the past couple weeks.
1) Just today actually I went out with a group of girls from work to lunch. I left a dollar tip on the table as me and some girls were leaving early. Now I know a dollar is not an enourmous or adequate tip, but the point is that I left a tip. I walked away from the table and came back and the dollar I left is missing. Hmmm…let me ask, who steals a tip off the table, really? It wasn’t the waiter because he was in the kitchen. That was very interesting to me.
2) How does someone accidently back a car into the car parked right behind it in the driveway? Yes that really happens, but trust me, it wasn’t me!
3) People not updating their blogs…well this time I’m bashing myself. If you have something you don’t use give it away! Looking towards the new year I hope to be writing here more, I have plenty of stuff that I have written, it’s just not on here yet…I hope to fix that soon!
4) Why do some people think silver is brown? Yes this has actually happened. My car is SILVER not brown for the record 
5) Who uses a plastic cup and a toothbrush to dye someones hair? The hair belonged to me, but it was my sister that actually did the dyeing. Pictures will possibly be up soon. It’s like a dark auburn. Yay for sisters!!
So that’s it for my rant. Hopefully I will have something more worthy up on here soon!
Starting college this year and looking at my 17 hours worth of classes, I was quite intimidated. I wasn’t sure how this was going to work for me. I haven’t been in school for about a year and a half and it was quite scary to look at.
The class I was worried most about, was Biblical Literature. This class is going through the entire bible in one semester. The reading obviously was going to be hard to accomplish, seeing that we have two text books in addition to the bible itself. It seemed outrageous, and way too much for my brain to process.
Now that I’ve been going a few times, I am really enjoying it. It fascinates me how much history is incorporated into the bible, how much I am learning. I have decided that as hard as this course may be, I am very interested in learning all there is to learn about it, solely because it interests me.
Cornerstones are an organization that divides the freshman at our college into groups for team building and for organizational skills. It’s an actual class and you get credit for it. One of our assignments is to go on a retreat with our group just to relax and have fun and spend time with our team. Now, I have been thoroughly blessed with every allergy that you can imagine. I’m in group 18, and by vote, we have decided that we are going camping in Arkansas. Now, camping while you are allergic to cedar, pine, juniper, oak, grass, pollen, mold, and bug bites is not the best idea. So now I have the option to either go on a trip with a different group or I can write an alternative assignment. Really, what would you choose?
I chose to go with a different group. So I am now going with group 21. I’m really excited because Heather, my suitemate, and Nathan, my boyfriend is in this group. I’m just really glad I found a group that’s going somewhere that I can go with people I know in it. We are going on a day trip to Dallas. We are going to spend the day at Six Flags, and then we are going to a Steak Restaurant. I don’t eat steak, but I’m pretty sure that whatever they have that I do eat will be better than cafeteria food, even though ours really isn’t that bad. Heather is even checking to see if we can spend the night at her moms friends house so that we don’t have to drive back late. I’m really excited about that. It looks like I have a fun weekend ahead of me.
~Me
When starting off in college, of course you get kind of nervous at first, and there are so many things to adapt to. One major thing to me has been learning to live with dorm-life. Now it’s not really as hard for me because I went to boarding school, so I have the basic routine down, but a Letourneau of course things are a little different, as they should be. Different hallways, in different dorms are like teams. These teams have colors, mascots, nicknames, traditions, anything that you could possibly imagine. It is definitely a lot to take in. All in all it has been a fun process so far.
I am living on Evelyn Letourneau Hall 3, more commonly known as ELH3. This floor was “dead” last year, so there are no fun floor traditions, or colors, or anything. We have to make up all of the traditions and such. I believe we have finally settled on the name “Heartbreakers” because we have different guy floors from other dorms competing to be our brother floor. Come on, someone’s got to lose. So calling ourselves the Heartbreakers seemed like a fair idea. One of the floor traditions we have come up with is kind of wild. We now have a “stalker bat.” It is an aluminum bat that my RA, Kelsey, bought at Wal-Mart and yours truly wrapped in duct tape and cameo fabric. We have been taking turns carrying that thing around all day! We also duct taped our shirts to say ELH3 on the front, and on the back there’s a broken heart.
We are still undergoing our Extended Orientation, so who knows what tomorrow will bring? All I know is that this is a fun experience, and I will be enjoying every minute of it. Pretty soon the year will be over and I do not want to miss a minute of it. So I’ve got to get to our meeting so that I can help pick stuff out.
~me
Okay, obviously i haven’t been writing a whole bunch lately. And to those of you who know me, you might notice that there are a lot of things that are blocked right now on here, and that is because I am going to be using my blog as part of a blogging assignment for my english class as well as (Hopefully) updating more because i do not see the point of making a new blog. So there will most definetly be something new up here soon. yay me
~Selanie
Hmm… It’s been an interesting while since i’ve written. And that’s the first thing. I haven’t been writing. It’s strange. I’ve lost focus from it and i’m not sure what i can do to get my focus back.
7 months with Nathan as of yesterday :]
I got a 1530 on the SAT, whooo hoo :] That means I get to actually go to college and i’m excited, Ruslans is out of the hospital and feeling better, and of course my car is broken…again, This time there is like a 4 inch crack that has already been repaired once. We repaired it again, and it really needs to be replaced. Should I be driving it? No!! Have I been? YES!! How else am I gonna get to work :]
Lots of exciting stuff should be happening this summer. I’m going to mexico on a mission trip, i’m hopefully going to make it up to south dakota for a while :] and i’m going to be getting ready for college. Lots to be said for that. I think i’m ready though. I think. And i’m excited. But i don’t like it when things change. It’s quite hard for me and i know that if everything goes as planned this summer and i do get to go to away to college that things are never going to be the same again. it’s a scary thought. I hope i’m ready.
Heres some interesting pictures from our SAT brunch celebration. I wanted a barbie cake and that’s what i got:
And yes, That is 4 layers of deliciousness i’ll have you know :]
I’m a dork :] but i have a barbie cake and you don’t 
PPPPPPPPPPP
Alright, i’m getting kinda crazy. Hopefully i’ll have something worth putting up here soon.
xoxoxoxox~~
MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL!!! Seriously though. I am totally angry. It’s not letting me log in. So now i can’t finish it. GAH!!!
My brother Ruslans is in the hospital. He had to have surgery on his small intestine. They were going to remove pary of it, but it turns out he had a hernia and some of his intestines were pushed up into a pocket of tissue (?) so they didn’t end up taking any of them out. They just pulled all of his intestines out, checked them, and put them back in. And the hospital is costing a fortune. Seriously.
Good news!! I’m going to college. I hope to be starting at Letourneau University in Longview Texas come this fall. I want to major in Education. And i am very excited. I think this will be a great experience for me.
That’s all for now. Everything’s crazy. I’ll leave you with these fun new photos from the Alamo Heights Fiesta, (see if you can guess my favorite superhero :]):
me being…well, me 
me and my sister Rita
me and cassidy
Ruslans being a monkey in the hospital
“I need you to love me! And I, I won’t keep my heart from you this time. And i’ll stop this pretending, that I can somehow not deserve what I already have”
That song has been stuck in my head for days. I think this is going to be more of an apology. I have been so….distant lately. I think that’s the best word, distant. I just can’t seem to think that I deserve to be happy. I just keep thinking that “that’s not for me” or “I’m just gonna screw it all up.” And it has been a constant dilemma, for weeks now. This nothingness. And i’ve been sitting here, at my desk, all day, just trying to figure out why I can’t smile. What’s weighing me down? I don’t understand, i’m confused.
I’ve been accusing myself of things I have no control over. There’s nothing I can do to change it, but in my head it just becomes my fault. If totally by accident or not, it is my fault. And I can’t shake that either. It’s getting annoying. It’s hard to be perfect, no, impossible, but I put every effort I have into being perfect so that it simply can’t be my fault, and I am wearing myself down. I am slowly just falling backward. I want to sleep all the time. So I make myself keep moving, because to slow down it to break down. Falling means i’m a fake. I can’t stop trying, I can’t do that to myself and I am just wearing myself down. Not sleeping. Not eating enough. And just going, going, going.
I can’t say no to people. I really just can’t. It’s crazy. And I don’t understand that. I just want to make sure that everyone else is okay, so that I can be okay. I don’t know how I started thinking that. It’s not true………but i’m still thinking it……..right now………..this very second.
I hate that writing is what drives me. Because I can’t write about anything happy. I can’t write sappy love ballads. I can’t write about cute little puppies and my little ponies. It doesn’t work like that for me. It get’s out the big emotions, anger, fear, etc. Dude, I just had an epiphany. Like right now. I think i’m afraid of love, and you know why? Because it always hurts me and I don’t like being hurt, and this goes back to me trying to be perfect. Love scares me, so I push it away and I screw everything up. I fight tooth, nail, and claw just so that I can be in control of me, because I don’t want anyone else to control me. That hasn’t worked out so hot in the past. So i just try to save myself for me, because in my mind, no one else will do it. And that sucks, I know, but if i don’t protect myself, who’s gonna do it?
The point of this is not a pity party. The point of this is to recognize and to work hard to try and change. This is an apology to my family, my friends, Nathan, and anyone else I indirectly affect with my self preservation. But most of all I apologize to myself. For abusing myself and pushing myself farther than I should have to. So hold me to it. I’m working on this for real. And I might even try to *gasp* actually sleep.
~Me
Okay so this is my compliance. To being tagged, and in turn i tag (hmmmm….let me think…)
~Oh Brother of mine Jared
~Alexia Ann
~Sydney Jane
~Shayla Kay
(Why do all of my friends have names like that)
~Rita :]
hmmmmmmmmm….okay that’s it. I’m cheating on this one, but who has a friend who’s name starts with an “O”, Really? Don’t contradict me!!
Here are the rules (which i copied):
1. You have to post the rules before you give your answers.
2. You must list one fact about yourself beginning with each letter of your middle name. (If you don’t have a middle name, use your maiden name or your mother’s maiden name).
3. At the end of your blog post, you need to tag one person (or blogger of another species) for each letter of your middle name. (Be sure to leave them a comment telling them they’ve been tagged.)
Here it goes:
R- Radical, yeah i went there. You know i am :] You just wish you were as Rad as me…hehehe or as Rad as Radley hahahahaha i bet all of you are so confused :] That’s how radical i am bwahahahahahahahaha
O- ummm…that’s a toughie. How about Orange, I hate that color. It’s just a dumb color, and the fruit isn’t that great either. Stupid orange/oranges
C- Colossal :] (that was for you Rita) I’m just kidding. How about Colorful :] I’m pretty psyco. I love big patterns and bright colors (though i know better than to wear more than one at the same time Arturs) i like to paint (even though i suck at it) and i’m super good with color cordination when it comes to clothes, wrapping paper, anything really, so yeah, colorful works XD
H- okay seriously, these letters aren’t working for me. Oooooh hair!! That’s good. I am definetly obsessed with my hair the cutting, coloring, etc. Keep me out of Sallys. And keep me away from my sister because i do her hair too. I’ve pretty much started a hair salon in my bathroom :] call me if you need something hahaha. I do piercings too. *lawl* :] don’t ask
E- Exaggeration, i’m a writer. I ad-lib a bit when telling stories and such. I could make a full production about going to the grocery store. But what can i say. I’m kinda dramatic as well. But those go hand in hand But i know when it’s okay and when it’s not, so ya’ll can forgive me.
L- Lauging. I laugh at anything. You could walk up to me and say racecar and i would just die laughing. I am also super ticklish. (which sucks btw for those of you luckier than I) And i’m told that i have a funny laugh. I squeak……kinda like a small rodent, maybe chipmunk. Some find that hilarious, i am not one of the some
L- Large (again for Rita. Just kidding ya’ll) ummmmmmmmmmm……….how about Loving. I don’t think there’s anyone i truely hate. Maybe Ellen (bwahahahaha) just kidding, i don’t think i could even hate her. But i am always forgiving and such (probably more so than i should be, i am told, alas) So yeah that’s a good one.
E- Excited!! I like to run around and do stuff all the time. That’s probably why i don’t sleep (or maybe that’s anxiety) Either way. I don’t enjoy being dull or boring or any of that jazz. I like to move around. I like to dance. I like to sing. I like to run. I’m a spaz.
TAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAG!! You’re it :]
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